Falling Off the Wagon

So I had a little slip this weekend on my new diet... I was doing really good and I went 5 whole days without eating meat... okay 4 days, Saturday I had lunch with my brother and I ended up having Calamari... however I didn't get too down on myself because I had originally said white meat and seafood would be okay while I'm settling into the changes. So I cracked, ate the calamari (Hey we were at Opa it could have been a chicken pita wrap!!!) and I had a small thought in the back of my mind for the rest of the day that I shouldn't have. That night I was good even still, I ate vegetarian pizza with my family while the pepperoni and delux's stared me in the face whafting their meaty scents towards me... but then I cracked on Sunday when it was time for dinner and I wasn't sure what to make for my hungry family so I threw in a chicken lasagna and ate some too.
So really I didn't slip on MY diet, I gave myself the ok for those foods at the beginning, but I still felt guilty after I ate them.
The images of the animals suffering danced in my head with every bite of my lasagna, despite how tasty it was... I'm now faced with another dilemma... we're serving chicken at the wedding reception. If I am off all meat at that point no biggie, I'll double up on my veggies and breads, but still I feel almost a moral dilemma shaping inside of me... obviously I don't expect everyone to be vegetarian and eat vegetarian because I have decided to try it out. This is a huge decision, one that I'm still in the process of making (regarding what my commitment will be and what exactly I am planning on eliminating from my diet) so of course I wouldn't go changing everything around because of that.
While I was discussing this with D he made a comment that, although he supports me he wants me to know that despite the changes I'm making I'm only one person and I'm not going to be able to stop the whole world from eating meat and stop the violence towards the animals. Of course I know this and this isn't my goal, I mean of course it would be wonderful if the violence stopped and if people started to eat more plant based diets - but the reason I believe this isn't because of the cruelty, it's because of the fact that we are over farming these animals to the point of it being a large component in the greenhouse effect on our planet.
I believe this because I have learned what these animals are being fed and injected with which in turn gets ingested into our bodies and has damaging effects on our health and wellbeing.
I believe this because I think that we need to eat using our minds and our hearts as a guide to what we need day to day and not our cravings to decide what we want.
I'm only one person, yes. But I'm one LESS person keeping this industry afloat and that's good enough for me.

On another note I did have my first Veggie Burger on the weekend and it was scrumptious!