I'm Back..

Ok so it's been awhile.

First off we did not make the 10 finalists... and I have to say that some of those couples had the most retarded stories I don't understand how we didn't beat some of them out but that is just my sore loser-ness talking.

I am on day 2 of stay at home mom. Not as in I am unemployed but my little guy has been sick, I really hate when you can't do anything to make it better. Last night he woke up at 3 and didn't go back to sleep until after 7, he had a fever and even me cuddling him on the couch didn't help him rest. But he seems to be a bit better today thankfully, I just feel so much worry. And this is the first time he's actually been sick aside from a cold and slight fever from having shots. So its been frustrating!

Sometimes I think that I would love to have just one more, but then I think maybe this is our family. Just the 3 of us. I would be perfectly happy with that. But at the same time then there is the worry if I will regret it or if Aiden would grow up lonely or become spoiled... its a tough decision to make. Right now I'm not ready to make it, but me and D have both discussed that maybe in the future we will have another... so we will see when the time comes!

Otherwise I guess I don't really have anything else to say right now...

back to crappy daytime t.v. until little A wakes up from naptime.

Burn Baby Burn

I have finally started to exercise. After much procrastination I forced myself to do something.

As you know we are in our new place now, more space has allowed us to create an exercise area. It isn't much right now, some free weights, a stability ball ... but it works! Anything is better than nothing right?

So I've been gradually getting myself into a routine and surprisingly I actually look forward to it! This is week 2 and so far so good. Today my abs were killing me and my workout was two days ago, so this evening I focused on my arms and legs. My goal right now is that by the end of the month I will be able to lift more weight and do more reps, as well as feel somewhat toned... at least I would imagine I'll start to feel something after a few more weeks?! I have to give D credit because without him I wouldn't have even started to work out. So he is my support system.

I would really like to start running as well, first I will need some proper shoes and the drive to wake myself up earlier in the mornings to do it. I think it will be great!

Okay, so there are 2 days left until the top 10 finalists are chosen for the Dream Wedding Contest!! Cross your fingers!

I'm not a very lucky person, so I'm trying not to get my hopes up too much... but then again you never know! Oh yeah and if the couple that bribed the radio station with candy and balloons wins I will track those bitches down and slap them! Okay no I wouldn't, but seriously... bribery? Shouldn't the winners be chosen on the impact their "love story" makes and not because they send treats? My love is sweeter than any candy out there... which is obviously why I didn't send anything in. Haha yes I know I am a loser...

If we don't win I have been trying to make some wedding plans once again, my dress is all ready for pick up!! That's one HUGE thing out of the way at least. I'm so excited to try it on again!! :)

Now we just have to figure out a plan that fits our budget. If only that weren't an obstacle! But money always is... always...

I really, really want a puppy!! A house is not a home without a dog! I love my kitty but I just... I need a dog to complete the family! :( If only we weren't renting...

I will just have to settle for Belle and Clive. Belle is my kitty, although she has her psychotic moments she is pretty darn cute. And Clive, he is my bunny neighbor that followed us to our new place. That is what I tell myself anyways. He greets me every morning. That will be the extent of my pets for now I suppose.

Well because I feel I am rambling I will stop here.

Goodnight!

Feeling lucky?

I asked a magic 8 ball if me and D were going to win the Dream Wedding Contest. It said yes.

That's all for now!

Dilemmas

I am (NOT) at work right now...
And being that I am so highly productive here, REGARDLESS of what any of the r-tards here like to think, I decided that a little mini-entry break is well deserved.
So we have moved, we are getting settled and I am LOVING our place! It is so amazing to have an actual place to call home, not a relatives basement where you don't have any "space" of your own. It is wonderful, I can't begin to describe how much... I feel that this change in surroundings will benefit us so much! :)

Back to work... ever since checking out SAIT online courses and Mt.Royal courses I have decided I do want to go back to school. I am in the midst of chosing... right now I am going back and forth between journalism and dental assitant... I do realize these are very opposite choices, I have always loved writing. I love words, I love reading them and writing them... I love beautiful quotes and poetry, I love darkness, hate, dispair... I love thought provoking articles, mysteries, romance... I feel butterflies when I read something that is well written and leaves me in awe. Yes I may sound like a dork admitting to all of that, but my point is I love words!
I have considered teaching English, becoming a journalist, becoming a writer. I dream of having something published one day.
However I also am very passionate about the health and wellbeing of others. I love taking care of people and communicating with them. I have often thought of being a nurse but I don't think I could handle the shifts, not with my family! I have also considered homecare but ... right now I have to be reasonable about my income, as selfish as that may sound. And as I scanned the listings of courses at SAIT and came across dental assistant it really caught my attention! The course is only 10 months long which is perfect, anything longer I would have to hold off on for awhile until financially we could afford it... so this would be perfect!
So there it is, I am left with a decision to make based on my two loves in life.

I have plenty time... so we will see what happens!

I better get back to my job...unfortunately...

P.S. I haven't started my excersising routine... hopefully now with the new place I can force myself to do something! Even if it's just walking with Aiden... I hate that I am lazy!