Tick Tock

Time is running out - in 46 days I will be walking down the aisle in my beautiful wedding dress towards my best friend and vowing to spend the rest of my days with my heart in his hands!

As I am uber excited and as I am enourmously anitcipating the big day I am I also have to admit I'm a bit stressed about getting everything done in time! I know that I will but stress is what I do best!

I feel prepared in the sense of having everything... okay having mostly everything I need and being pretty organized throughout the whole preperation period which definitely helps to dimish my stress and worry but in the end I can't fight it completely and I'm still somewhat a wreck in my head.

One thing I am worried about is my size, what if I've gained weight and I don't fit my dress right?
Because I am a procrastinator and I almost never stick to any goals I make I of course did not adhere to my weight loss & get fit plan. Instead I just made myself feel guilty everytime I had ice cream or something that I said I would avoid in order to look my best. I most definitely don't look my best and my fear at this time is the 2 weeks spent in BC which will be spent in a bathingsuit 99.9% of the time and all I can envision is my stomach that is less than perfect and most certainly not the tight and toned tummy I was hoping to have by this time of the year. Once again my work out plans have failed and I've let myself down... if I can't even uphold a routine to look my best for the BIGGEST DAY OF MY LIFE then when will be able to? Most likely .... ummm... never!

So while I wallow in the self pity of my lack of drive I will ignore the fact that I ate a donut this morning and tell myself I am doing a good job. *Pat on the back*

The other night I was so down on myself that I made a new resolution to run 5km twice a week to try to maintain my weight ... well I haven't yet, not that it's too late... I have about 5 weeks until the wedding and in that time it is entirely possible that I can turn back the last 6 months of doing nothing but I would have to do ALOT more than only work out 2 times a week to look the way that I was planning to look by now.
Again not impossible but... can I do it? Can I stick to something for once?

I am going to get off the computer now - get off my butt and attempt to go on the treadmill. This is what I say but it is entirely possible that I get off the computer and decide to avoid any type of exercise and just go home to do more packing and cleaning. At least it's some type of exertion right?

Well I will go now and in 46 days everyone will be able to see what choice I made today.

Meat-ing Standards

Last night I made spagetti - we are a family who loves our pasta - and one thing I admit to missing is the bolognese sauce I used to make to top it off with but the sauce was made with ground beef so therefore I haven't made it, but last night I made somewhat of a bolognese alternative with Tofurky.

What is Tofurky you ask? Well it is a "meat substitute" made from tofu - last night we tried the Italian Sausage Tofurky and I must say it was delicious!

I browned up the 'sausages' in a pan with olive oil, crimini mushrooms, onion, garlic and red pepper.

I then let it simmer in a tomato basil sauce for about 15 minutes. YUM!

After we got half way through our meals I asked Derek how he liked it;

He said it was good, I told him it was Tofurky sausage and he said he knew and then I asked:

"Does it meet your expectations?"

to which he replied

"It doesn't 'meat' anything"

And we laughed...

That is my story of our first experience with tofu.