Blonde Ambition?

As the wedding plans continue to whittle down on my list of to do's I have one decision that I can't seem to make my mind up over... my hair color.

I know it seems like such a trivial part of everything but I want to have the perfect look on our big day, I want to feel my most beautiful and I want to look back at all of our pictures over the years and know everything was perfect... and that I was perfect!

I like blonde because it's so glamorous and "look at me" pretty, it makes your face brighter and my eye color stands out more when my hair is lighter...

I like brunette because I feel more natural and classic looking, my eyebrows are dark so I feel like it doesn't draw attention to them where as blonde does (to me)...

Having been both hair colors and really liking both colors I'm having a hard time deciding... originally my heart was set on being brunette and my only concern on that was what shade... but then I started to look at more pictures of my "blonde days" and thinking maybe I should be that color?

But I don't want to feel fake on my wedding day... when I got my dress the very first day I had it on I was a light blonde and looking at those pictures I felt like it washed out my features. The second time I had it on for alterations my hair was dark blonde and it looked much better.... now my hair is dark brown and I think it would look great as well.

Very classic and old style glamour...

Dark brown hair, soft waves, my veil... sounds pretty glamorous to me! (or light brown?)

Blonde, soft waves, my veil... sounds pretty... but is it glamorous? (dark blonde?)

There are quite a few friends and family who say blonde and almost the same amount who say brunette...

I'm so confused...

No Home Sweet Home

Lately I have been paying a lot more attention to the real estate market and housing prices... I would love to buy a home of our own in the near future but I worry that we may not be able to afford it. I know we wouldn't (shouldn't) even think about it until after the wedding at least which is not far away, it would give us time to think about finances as well as where we would be interested in looking and what we would pay.

I don't mind renting but I just want a place that is our own. No neighbors that you can hear through the walls and a big backyard and enough room for all of our needs and for having family and friends over.

I've grown to be ... somewhat comfortable in our place now but it still doesn't feel like home. Our last place felt so much more homey and comfortable and here it just feels so... small and crappy and I just want to get out. I want a place to kick back and relax and know it's our own and know that everything is taken care of and done properly and just be happy and settled in.

I just can't wait! I look through the online listings all the time and then I get more antsy thinking about it and I know when the time is right for us to buy we will find the perfect home but I'm so impatient I just wish we could now! A year is not very long to have to look into things and consider all of our options so at least that is the upside. However we still don't really know when we will be able to actually make the leap from rent to own.

One day...

Beginnings

I'm one week into my new (old) job and I can honestly say I haven't been this happy in a long time. I used to wake up and hit snooze multiple times because I didn't want to get up and go to work, now I get up and look forward to going. I don't feel like I even have a job because I spend all day with people I absolutely love and get along so well with and I like cleaning to begin with so for me it's just a good way to spend time. Plus I have so much more energy ever since starting there, I get home and I want to do things around the house or with Aiden rather than sit and watch t.v. because I was so exhausted mentally I had no drive for anything else.

I feel so great, I know a lot of it has to do with being active and on my feet all day which I also really like.

It's kind of funny because at my old job I would come home and the last thing I wanted to do was be on the computer because I sat at one all day long but when I come home from this job I want to clean my house even though I've spent all day cleaning! So it's just such a change...

It feels like this was meant to be and that I was definitely in dire need of change.

:)

Falling for Fall

It's that time of year... the soft winds of summer slowly change to a chilly breeze... the days are shorter already, the leaves are changing color and falling...

I absolutely am in love with fall. Everything about this season is, to me, perfect!

My all time favorite Starbucks drink makes it's seasonly debut (the Pumpkin Spice latte!)

The fashion trends never fail to astonish and captivate me, I love the runways this time of the year they are so full of drama and so mesmerizing!

I am a lover of change so every spring and every fall I feel this ambition to make a difference in my life. Spring is the usual de-clutter and simplify time but fall is the re-evaluation time. I always tend to sit back and try to look at my life and what I'm doing and see what I want to be different. This year my difference is my job, I'm taking a major change leaving the office and going back to my old boss at the cleaning company. At the moment I don't feel that my career is important, I wasn't happy at my old job and I definitely wasn't happy with the amount of time I spent away from my son :(

Now I will be working less and will be able to spend more time with him which until he is back in school is my goal! Once he starts school I will figure out what I want to do. It's not like I'm short on time or options... I'm going to be under 25 when he starts school which is still young. So right now I'm not too worried. I want to focus on my family, their needs and my own. I want to think about what I am happy doing. I want to have more time to do what I enjoy and teach my son to do things he enjoys as well. I think this change will make a huge difference and I am really looking forward to it... it's a bit intimidating but I know I'll adjust quickly. It helps that I have such a good relationship with my old (new) boss.

So there is change number one. Of course following that change I know I will change, being able to put my priorities back in line will definitely change my perspective and attitude towards everything. Who knows what other revelations I will have ... haha.