Defining Determintation

I've been thinking a lot about my choices to be vegetarian and while I still have not eaten any red meat I feel I am slightly wavering on my decision... it isn't really the fact that I miss it, I can't say I really even think about it that much or feel deprived at all. I have made a definite decision that I am going to continue eating white meat and fish and I am debating over whether or not I will on occassion eat red meats... which wouldn't be very often if even at all. I find with myself when I decide to cut something out of my diet I tend to want it even though I am not hungry for it so I am hoping that by saying I can have it to myself I won't anyways...

I do feel really great lately with my diet taking it's new form, I did have chicken last night for dinner. Bought fresh and organic from the Farmers Market!
I felt good about buying it knowing it was from an ethical farm, organic and free reign. I also bought some fresh rosemary and baked the chicken with that, nothing smells better than fresh herbs! :)

One thing I have to admit is that I am not feeling full throughout the day, I notice that in between meals I am starving so I'm obviously not getting enough fibre or protein to keep me satisfied. I will have to look into that and figure out what changes I can make so I don't feel like I'm going to wither away by dinner time!!

On a sour note I totally binged this weekend, girls night on Friday left me chowing down on white cheddar popcorn, ice cream cone and a glass of wine. When I'd already broke down and gotten me and little A cheese pizza for dinner... I felt horrible later on! And very bloated... you would have thought I'd learned my lesson but no... Saturday night we watched movies as a family and again I over ate... this time on candy and another ice cream cone.
Sunday I was better, ate a proper breakfast, had a mini lunch and our hearty chicken dinner with baby bok choy, spagetti squash, mashed potatoes and freshly baked foccacia bread. For dessert we had a saskatoon berry tart (also picked up that day from the market!)
So although I had my first weekend breakdown it's okay, I'm not perfect and I don't expect to be turned around 360 degrees opposite of where I was in less than a months time.
I think I'm doing pretty good after all!

This week I have to be good to myself though, Sunday is Mothers Day and I'm doing the Mothers Day Run with my family and friends and little A! This is my second year doing it, I'm hoping to do better than I did last year but either way it will be good for me to pound the pavement.
I also feel ready to start up another goal, another integrated part of my diet and lifestyle is that I want to walk more. Not only for me but for my poor baby Harley who has been deprived of his walks for awhile and lets face it, letting him run in the field behind the house for a few minutes a day does not equal a good walk's worth of exercise!! Plus little A needs some more time outdoors too and it couldn't hurt for me and D either... no more couch potatoe family here!!