Backwards

Things have been going pretty great lately, I feel a lot happier than I have in a long time. However I can't help the feeling that I'm retracing my footsteps so to speak... coming back to my old job has been so good for my emotional well being and for having more time to spend with my little boy but it's also raised some stress due to finances and taking such a big pay cut from where I was. In that aspect I feel like I'm backtracking ... but at the same time I know that money isn't everything... and obviously doesn't equal happiness. I guess I'm just used to living like we were and being able to spend money without keeping track of where it was going and now I have to watch every dollar that leaves my wallet. It is probably a good thing though because I was really losing track of my spending so now I'm forced to think about everything I buy and that will be a good change... I can rebuild our "foundation" of our earnings this way. We are trying to start over, clear out our debt and get into better financial shape. It hasn't been easy but... who ever said anything about money being an easy feat?

There has been so much change in our lives in the last few months... it's been hectic and sometimes hard but it's also very refreshing to be in a completely different place in most aspects of our life and to be so much happier and we have been happier too; as a couple which is even more important!

We have changed a lot lately in respect to how we live and with our restricted budget we've had to give up a lot of luxuries we were used to but I don't honestly feel as if we are living in a limited way. I think a lot of our purchases prior to this change were selfish splurges we would allow ourselves to have because we could and now we can't be selfish, we have to think as a family and as a whole and that is a much better way to go about things anyways. I have taught myself how to make my expensive luxury latte's from home and I now have a D.I.Y. ritual for my pedicures and my hair coloring wants, the things that used to "make my day" are now just nice little additions because now what makes my day is spending so much more time with my family or being able to cook dinner or to play with my son more often... I'm a better mom, fiance and probably every other title I fall under simply because my focus has completely and totally changed. I have a new outlook on my life and on myself that I can only thank to my backwards actions!