So lately I've been pondering over my job...my future goals...I haven't really come up with anything though. As I've learned you can't plan life...my original plan was to take a year off before going to college, well it's been 4 years since high school and I now have an 18 month old.
Needless to say my direction in life took many unexpected turns. I always try to plan, that's what I do...I have to plan everything and know what is going to happen...or feel like I do. I like control.
So basically my "plan" is to go back to school once my son starts kindergarten. But I am also open to opportunities that may come along, I'm open to changing my plan... I wouldn't even call it a plan anymore but... more of a fallback choice. If I haven't done anything or found anything that makes me happy by the time Aiden is in school then I will take some courses so that I can change that. After all, we spend so much time at our job, we might as well enjoy it!
I have to admit I was being rather harsh on my last entry, I do not hate my job. I don't love it either, but hate is a strong word. I don't feel like I'm using my talents in my job though, which makes it hard to enjoy.
Life is hard to figure out...we put things off because we feel like we can deal with it tomorrow, but we don't really acknowledge that tomorrow may not come. So why is it so hard to take chances? What are we afraid of? Failure is intimidating sure, but isn't a life of settling scary too... maybe scarier? You have options... as the quote goes "The only limits in life are the ones we set on ourselves" (author unknown) which is true... if you let your fears and doubts lead you in life you won't get very far. At least... you won't get where you want.
But another obstacle is choosing. In this endless sea of possibilities ... there are so many choices to make. As people, we are complex, so it isn't as if we only have a few options to chose from... maybe then it would be easier... but maybe not. As we all know nothing in life is easy, we just wish it were. We look for simple solutions to shine a light upon our lives thinking that if one piece of the puzzle is found the rest will simply fall into place... if only it were that easy.
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