I think most of it is in anticipation of all the change coming...moving yet again, which I am excited about don't get me wrong but the thought of packing and transporting after moving here only 6 months ago seems daunting. My nerves are on end at the thought of this mess...the accumulation of crap. I wish someone would come into out house and just take all of the stuff we don't actually need (which would be most of it) and I wouldn't notice it was missing when I came home and I could just pack 2 boxes up and go! What is it about stuff anyways. Why do we need so many things around us? does it make us feel better about our lives to be surrounded by items...to put labels or emotions towards them like they are irreplaceable ... why do we do it? Why do we hoard?
Maybe this move I will un-hoard myself. Tidy up my life a bit. Everyone could use some of that.
Otherwise...why am I going crazy? I guess I'm also nervous because of moving Aiden's daycare again however this nervous has nothing to do with being worried about where he will be or who he's with or anything along those lines! I am so stupidly excited about his new daycare I was practically jumping off the walls when we found out we could get him in!
I am so, so, so extremely happy!
This place is like the HEAVEN of all day cares. It is perfection! It is too much to even be labeled as "daycare" implying some drab room full of hand my down toys and diaper smell... no... not this place, this is THE daycare of all day cares!
I could go on but I won't. Basically Aiden will be so much better of here, this place is like the foundation for development and for school and for social skills... everything a child needs they get at this place. And why are we so lucky? Well because my boss is who he is and he has some major pull ... lucky for me! :)
So beyond the moving stress and the day care transitional madness I'm going through I couldn't tell you why else I feel so lost and dazed right now.
I guess maybe I just need to relax. Slow my thoughts. Slow my pace. Slow it all.
What I actually really think I need is to get away for a bit... which is a good thing because I'll be going to Sask. soon to see grammy. That will be a nice trip, much needed escape from my surroundings!
Maybe it will help me unwind a bit...I can only hope anyways.
Well I guess thats it for now since I still can't seem to think straight enough to write anything decent tonight...
Until next time!
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